it was close to the end i felt you let go of my hands.
i got scared so i thought id call up my old friend.
told him you were leaving
slow decent like sand,
the tighter hold the faster that you started slippinggggg.
he told me when it happened he had traded all his days for nights.
for when he dreampt of her he truly felt alive.
and when the morning came he felt like he would die
thats when he wouldnt leave his room slept all the timeeee.
once i asked his sister what she thought of all his pain
she told me sweetly that it wasnt bout the rain.
it was the rainbow that would cloud himself in shame
for he knew that he would hate
himself more than she did.

ive been alone so long before
ill be fine now again im sure
No ones ever had my back
I love you still isnt that so sad?

so i ran into his lover the one that he doesnt name.
she acted different but her hair worn the same way
she smiled i remember when she was in pain.
I asked how she did it and she spoke slowlyyyyy.
i just took it month by month week by week and day by day
i thought about the way i was with him and then i changed.
the fog had cleared i was alone and he was just a name
dont get me wrong some nights i still writhe in hate.
she screamed
sometimes i have nightmares where im running and hes chasing me
sometimes we’re hugging and i cant even fucking breathe.
the memories i have o they are no longer sweet.
he told me he loved me but i could tell he was lying.

I wanna try and dream with the windows open
Dream about your mouth how you were soft spoken
You told me that you hated all my sad sad songs
So i wrote some happy ones and we sang along
You told me you would hold me when i needed comfort
Now its getting cold soon it will be september
I wonder where are you now?
Where are you now?