Every day I wake up I feel dead I feel like all my friends they have left me But I remember your words and I feel like we could be something again Every day I wake up shaking my leg I feel like there is a bone that is rotting So I shake it off And I feel just fine Turns out it was A matter of time Till we have to deal With something that Comes and stays like a heart attack I hope that he loved you like you needed I got on the floor last night I begged and you know pleaded That he’d give you one more chance no I got on my hands though Oh just one more have no idea what you’re going through And I will not pretend like I do I wanna make lies And convince everyone they’re true Like that I’ve always been vegan And that maybe my name is Steven too That funny little thing you used to do And with everything good It also goes wrong I noticed this while writing this song Like the sentiment Gets all mixed up Like I don’t have to say You know it sucks But I love you so And ill see you soon Yeah that I know We’re all here for you Im trying hard, Its not the same And I know you’re good At hiding your feelings.

I feel embarrassed when she says his name Its like she’s searching for the love but all she’s getting is the pain Too bad she didn’t keep her last name. Doctor doctor doctor Id like to explain I thought it was love But it felt like a game Mistook the touch For sincere mistake But now here I am And Im set in these ways Think the best is yet to come think that we’re still pretty young Doctor doctor doctor Id like to explain These aren’t needles Hooked up to veins The drugs were your friends I think thats insane Wish you were still here and saying my name I built you up with bright pink pastels You were greaaaaat Dressed you up, with pretty white dresses Turned greeeey I’d come around when you are broken down Cuz im a dick Built you back up night by night 24 hour shifts When you got fine and your friends got back I dipped They sold and threw away all my old shit I hate your friend steven, you know he’s a bitch Please keep my journals and drawings though I wish I was kidding but I spent so much time on those. I mean I made them for you so. I feel embarrassed when I make things for you I wonder why I do I think we both know the truth That i’ve always been crushing on you

When she’s around You’re acting different You’re talking to me like I am illiterate. HA HA HAH AHAH AH I came back from a quick bite Cuz you said you said you missed me too waited out in the cold Almost all afternoon I bought a hoodie on my phone online I waited there till the day turned into night While driving home I told myself to cut my nails so I could play this song right itll be good for me it’ll be good for you It’ll be good to see, what you can do When you’re on your own again You can ignore us all you want Its probably irrelevant now You can ignore us till we stop Calling and trying to hang out You can ignore us when you think That you’ve got everything you need now And when she comes back and says I hate you We will be nowhere to be found Dont get me wrong we love all of your ailments Taking care of you was never a chore Im not your husband and she’s not your wife And I know you love him more, And I’m not mother we all have a life Even you, one you can’t explore. You say You wanna come back home But everyone is gone When she doesn’t wanna link up when you come back school And when comes back from his business trip and doesn’t wanna fuck you itll be good for me it’ll be good for you It’ll be good to see, what you can do When you’re alone again Cuz When he’s around You’re acting different You’re talking to me like I am illiterate. HA HA HAH AHAH AH

You passed your heart to Hard to be alone Like a cartoon barstool drunk at home I remember you barking mad as a dog You were pretty as a princess Then slowly you burned it all How does it feel? I know you know That there is no will Inside of petticoats Out on the dock Yah you wore your jumper then you took it off. And I could hear him He stuck your hand Down his pants remember wanting the end I always wanted to be the ocean That you dipped your toes in But iiiii, I deserve to be cold, without anyone. To know. I know that we’re not the same anymore But I still check up on you just to make sure I remember those friends they say 4 years later You meant so much to me way back then… And I know you said that you hate men But god I know you loved me then Ohhh I gave my heart to You And a bar stool Who Couldn’t keep me awake at night when I needed I caught a glimpse and then it receded I love you now even when I haven’t seen you Do you take advantage of all that we’ve been through I wonder how it all culminates in your brain And I wonder if you also think that I’m insane When I gave my heart to You. wonder if you also think that I’m insane When I gave my heart to You.

In winter, at dusk The diner lights, light both of us See I guess it wasn’t so bad And then you Looked like your dad You said a matter a fact You looked like your mom And then you just turned And looked on and on And you love a boy so you gave it a shot sometimes he texts you but mostly he does not And I could love you Better than he could And I could love you More than he can And I could love you And I do. I saw the pictures it looked so pretty thought about asking you to take a road trip with me Inappropriately, of course Not sure if it’s right I just really want that Diner at night. Snow piled high, wiping tears from your eyes. In summer, a rock you scratch in “only some of us” See I guess it wasn’t so sad And then you Looked like your dad You said a matter a fact You looked like a song And then you just turned And looked on and on And its quarter to 3 And im writing songs for your memories. And watching T.V shows That you’re not meant to watch alone. You look like 16 You look like failing a class for a friendship You look like MFA Saturday morning artclass You Look look like your dad Look look like your dad Look look like your dad Do you like wearing all black? Cuz I already have clothes like that

You must think I live my life like I am in a movie Like I am the main character and everyone moves for me But I know that I am not When I call you and you don’t pickup But I know that I am not Just I don’t wanna hang out here too long before I start to decay Into the people we used to know and try talk to every other day cause nothings changes and it never will You’ll never see me the way that I see myself And I wish you, for I loved you so But now ill move on faster than you’ll tell me to go Cuz im 13 then im 20 I’m hungry then im not I want a band then I don’t Cuz im in love with what I got. When I found you I was so depressed, I thought Id not come back, from it And you found me I was ready to hop the ledge you said, Why would you do that? I’d love to hear about the rest I said, Oh there’s not much more, just a little bit left, And we’ve been talking every since, isn’t it funny how it went? Imani I want you to marry me I know you think im delirious I know I look like a fool But oh god I am serious Cuz I have learned as I get older its easy to move on From bands, and places and friends, and ultimately these songs But I choose to not push forwards Not from everything just yet And I’m not sure if thats so healthy But im not willing to second guess it Everybody moves just a little fast for me Everybody moves Everybody moves At warp speed Then Im at my senior prom Then im at my college dorm Then im starting my new job Then I hang out there a lot Then I’m outside biking by Then im home all of the time Then Im calling out your name In a Walmart parking lot Then I’m crying all the time Then I’m looking back on life Then I’m fighting about food With a son that I call mine Then I’m holding on to hope Then im drunk out by the pool Then for the very first time i am nervous kissing you Then Im at my senior prom again Then im at my college dorm again Then Im at my senior prom again Then im at my college dorm again