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hope mid west pen pals doesnt sue me lol.

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I am back inside my head again. taking comfort in my own bed. That's all it is now just a that was then, and now i guess atleast we're still Facebook friends. So have a great big party, want some cheese with all that whine, so breaking down each missed ache, all goodbyes seem to come with a price, but maybe if it meant more to you, i wouldn't hate all my goodbyes. WISH YOU WERE LEAVING INSTEAD OF ME, but I guess that's how things ought to be. leaving songs, leaving songs, leaving songs leavings songs.

Joes poem :
I had a dream I killed myself in front of everyone.
I slit my wrists and smashed my head in with a brick.
Nobody gave a fuck. Nobody batted an eye.
I swear that no one cares if you want to die.
If they're happy and you're not, they're not really there for you.
They see you as this negative force pulling everybody down.
Instead of understanding they treat you like an outcast.
Sending you into an abyss of sadness.
Eventually you hit rock bottom but its just a false floor.
Now you're spiraling into a deeper darker depression than ever before.
Nobody cares how you feel when you're alive. When you die they're suddenly all your "best friend" and they "can't believe" that you're gone when you know damn well you were drowning and asking for help.
No one even glanced over too afraid that they might get sucked into the water and drown themselves.
Nobody cares if they're happy and you're not.

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from Why Did I Do Everything I've Ever Done, released May 14, 2016
Joe McCart let me use a recording of his poem during the end of the song. It's hell rad. He's one of the best pals I'll ever have.

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